here i am again
its been a few good hours since u left
and i still feel unwell
i read ur blog
it was sweet
thanks
it has always been sweet
but this time, i didnt smile
nt becos i dun love u, but i'm unwell
been feeling very weird since we last made that promise
i mean i am very willing to
but
it seems like a very important part of us, is been taken away
by us
since we made that promise
i felt like, i'll nt be in contact with a person anymore
like its gone
just likedat
i dunno if it will come back
but it seems like this time is real
when u called just now
it really hurts when i have to say "i'm Ok" when i'm not
i dunno y i'm not
its really not easy to be laughing and talking like nothing had happened
i know i should have told u how i'm feeling right now
but
i know this is good for us
logically
yeah i know its good for us
and you wont have to think about it for the whole day
and really be urself
who u are
at the beginning
and i love to see u smile baby
i dunno whether i wanna go sch with u tmr or not
i really dun wanna smile and u again and talk to u
when it hurts inside
its painful
lets see how it goes tmr morning
baby, if u managed to get here and read this
i dunno how, but
pls dun be mad at me when u feel that i should have voiced out my opinion to u
but i just wan things to go smoothly
so that we can enjoy ourselves once again
after a few days, at least
ah, this is making me feel much better
no one reads it anyway lol
BUT
if anyone caught this,
dun worry, i'm not breaking up with her =)
just making some important decision with her, tats all
i will miss u baby, while i go out with u
i'll nv forget the little fights (literally) after each wed and sat
and the "hurry up!, we're running out of time!"
when we're at cwp early in the afternoon
this time is for real
tats y it affected me so much
like u've said
its really not good for us
especially u
and i respected tat decision
baby, i love u. but i'm hurting. for now.
what day is itand in what monththis clock never seemed so aliveI can't keep upand I can't back downI've been losing so much timecause it's you and me and all of the peoplewith nothing to donothing to loseand it's you and me and all of the peopleand I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of youall of the things that I want to sayjust aren't coming out rightI'm tripping inwardsyou got my head spinningI don't know where to go from herecause it's you and me and all of the peoplewith nothing to donothing to proveand it's you and me and all of the peopleand I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of youthere's something about you nowI can't quite figure outeverything she does is beautifuleverything she does is rightyou and me and all of the peoplewith nothing to donothing to loseand it's you and me and all of the peopleand I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of youyou and me and all of the peoplewith nothing to donothing to proveand it's you and me and all of the peopleand I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of youwhat day is itand in what monththis clock never seemed so alive.....