here i am again
its been a few good hours since u left
and i still feel unwell
i read ur blog
it was sweet
thanks
it has always been sweet
but this time, i didnt smile
nt becos i dun love u, but i'm unwell

been feeling very weird since we last made that promise
i mean i am very willing to
but
it seems like a very important part of us, is been taken away
by us
since we made that promise
i felt like, i'll nt be in contact with a person anymore
like its gone
just likedat
i dunno if it will come back
but it seems like this time is real

when u called just now
it really hurts when i have to say "i'm Ok" when i'm not
i dunno y i'm not
its really not easy to be laughing and talking like nothing had happened

i know i should have told u how i'm feeling right now
but
i know this is good for us
logically
yeah i know its good for us
and you wont have to think about it for the whole day
and really be urself
who u are
at the beginning
and i love to see u smile baby

i dunno whether i wanna go sch with u tmr or not
i really dun wanna smile and u again and talk to u
when it hurts inside
its painful
lets see how it goes tmr morning

baby, if u managed to get here and read this
i dunno how, but
pls dun be mad at me when u feel that i should have voiced out my opinion to u
but i just wan things to go smoothly
so that we can enjoy ourselves once again
after a few days, at least

ah, this is making me feel much better
no one reads it anyway lol
BUT
if anyone caught this,
dun worry, i'm not breaking up with her =)
just making some important decision with her, tats all

i will miss u baby, while i go out with u
i'll nv forget the little fights (literally) after each wed and sat
and the "hurry up!, we're running out of time!"
when we're at cwp early in the afternoon
this time is for real
tats y it affected me so much
like u've said
its really not good for us
especially u
and i respected tat decision
baby, i love u. but i'm hurting. for now.


what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is itand in what month
this clock never seemed so alive.....